I got mine.

"there is always one woman to save you from another and as that woman saves you she makes ready to destroy"
— Charles Bukowski (Love Is a Dog from Hell: Poems, 1974-1977)

addicted to... ?

my back is sweaty.
a cat is licking my feet.
the smoke won't stop pouring down my throat into my sore lungs.
it is 4:18 and I can't sleep.
i am in a warmer climate then usual.
i shadow a man and fall steps behind.
the drink taunts me.
i am at least thirty years old by now i think.
life is good.
i wish i wasn't three hundred and twenty one pounds.
i should exercise,
maybe get out a little,
i am not depressed.
just going through withdrawls.
maybe it's just a little bit of a quarter life crisis.
who knows. i don't. you don't either.
life is good.
good men are hard to find.
i have found them.
the drink has now found me i can't keep from it.
i don't particularly want to either.
i am functional.
i am dysfunctional.
life is good.
oh women and children.
i love you all.
life is good.
life is good.
i think maybe i am only two hundred and fifty five pounds.
another drag. another cough.
i hope my son/daughter knows i love him/her.
i hope my wife knows i love her.
i hope my friends know i love them.
don't feel pity for me.
life is good.
i try to be a good man and not a shadow of one.
a good man.
that is all i want to be.
take the weight baby take the weight baby.
read no more.
life is good.
great spirit why are you so grey?
is it because my hair is?
is that why hair gets grey?
i understand that now,
all is grey.
life is good.
linger on.
linger on my lips.
linger in my lungs.
linger in the good life.
please.
linger on.
linger with me for a bit.
life is good,
life is good.
life is grey,
life is good.
life is grey.
life is grey?
life is good.
life is good?
sure,

My head hurts.

but, I am well.

Ohhhhh, Baby!

I am currently in TX sitting on the porch having a cigarette.

This past week as been pretty crazy.

The Rabbit party was rad.
Evan played great.
I left shortly after that in a drunken state.

We moved into Cedar.
Come see us.

I towed Joey's car with Mr. Huff's truck.

I got a job a Pfunky Griddle.

Last night we celebrated Jakob's birthday.
Pool, Cigarettes, Chess, and Beer. Durh.
Pure Class.

I've been watching Gonzo with Joey a lot.
Hunter S. Thompson was brilliant.

Star Trek was the best thing I've seen in a while.

I love the mothers in my life.
Especially, the two most dear to me.
Thank you both for being there.
Keep on doing what you do.

Goodbye.

Our newest roommate.

BLACK MOLD!!!!

(a)

Today I payed my electric bill, and it felt soooo good.



Another day in the production of the BF (Bumping Fuzzies).





Tonight, I am off to find a charger for my phone.
Circle K Craig was giving me a hard time earlier, and it was really funny. He makes the list.

Mom, Dad, and a Barrel of Monkeys.

I am sitting in my arm chair with a musical mess in front of me.
Day (2) of the Bumping Fuzzies EP recording.

My folks were in town this weekend.
It was the shit.

Played a sub par show with Austin in Knoxville on friday, which was fun.
While in Knox, I went to this coffee shop and played these two rad black guys in chess. I won.
I got back at four in the morning to a very hilarious and slightly troublesome situation.

I also played with Kopecky last night. It was Bennett's last show... that bitch....
It was the first time in a while my parents got to see me play.
That was very neat.

(a) cloudy collective?

get ready april.